Today marks twenty days since Raquel went home to be with the Lord. At times it seems as if it all happened yesterday and at other times it feels like its been months.
While the Lord has shown us many things through this trial, there is still one question not completely answered. Why?
Why, Lord, did you select Terry and I to carry this burden? The enemy is here telling us its because our flesh is so evil in your sight that you need to crush us continuously in order to sanctify us.
While I know our flesh is corrupt and evil, I don't believe for a minute that this is a punishment. I am convinced you selected us because you knew how we would respond.
Was the sole purpose of this trial to grow our faith, to bring our body of believers closer together, to test us? Is this just me trying to reconcile how a mighty and loving God would let all of this happen? Is this all there is Lord? I can't accept that! Not because I need to believe in something bigger to cope but because this whole thing was about YOU, not about us.
I have felt for several weeks that Raquel's conception, disease, life and death are part of a much larger plan. Picture what happens when you toss a rock into a very still pond and the rings that project outward from the center. I see this event in time as that rock being tossed into the pond. The rings are lives being touched and changed.
I suspect there are thousands upon thousands of ponds being disrupted by you at this time all over the world. Why, Lord, are you disturbing these ponds of peace and stillness? What are you planning that has the enemy so upset that he is attacking us like never before?
We are weary, Lord. Please give us a peek into your overall plan so we can be encouraged.
Praying for a glimpse into God's plan
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Dear Gary and Terry,
I cannot begin to understand your loss. Words seem shallow in comparison. The video deeply moved me. Thank you for sharing.
You are in my prayers.
"May the L-rd give you grace in this time of grieving. May His purposes unfold in your home and may you be filled with His peace. May He be your strong arm when you are weak. Would He draw close in the weeping of night and would you rise to His face in the joy that comes in the morning. And in this time of brokenness would you find Him so very close. Would His balm of healing be upon your house and your hearts. Would His shield be around you to ward off any lie or deceitful thought. Would the questions dissolve into the everlasting trustworthiness and goodness of our G-d. He remains when the world shakes about us. Would His peace greatly surpass your understanding and give you rest in the midst of the storm. May His face shine upon you greatly in this time."
When I was thinking about your family today I thought how wondrous for precious Raquel that she does not have to carry the burden of knowing only in part, but her small frame now knowing the fullness of her Abba, Father. He no longer merely passes by, but all around His Light, His touch, His comfort, His glory and presence. His radiant and kind face. His hands enclosing her and holding her close to His cheek. And what better place? We who are here merely waiting for such a time as that.
G-d bless you and your family. My heart and prayers go out to you...
Thank you again for sharing.
Kati S
I would like to post a song that came to my heart shortly after I heard of Raquel's passing. I hope it will be a blessing to you.
Jen
In shady, green pastures, so rich and so sweet,
God leads His dear children along;
Where the water’s cool flow bathes the weary one’s feet,
God leads His dear children along.
Refrain
Some through the waters, some through the flood,
Some through the fire, but all through the blood;
Some through great sorrow, but God gives a song,
In the night season and all the day long.
Sometimes on the mount where the sun shines so bright,
God leads His dear children along;
Sometimes in the valley, in darkest of night,
God leads His dear children along.
Refrain
Though sorrows befall us and evils oppose,
God leads His dear children along;
Through grace we can conquer, defeat all our foes,
God leads His dear children along.
Refrain
Away from the mire, and away from the clay,
God leads His dear children along;
Away up in glory, eternity’s day,
God leads His dear children along.
Refrain
http://www.cyberhymnal.org/htm/g/l/gleadsus.htm
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